Jonathan felt much better last Friday but we decided to take him to see the pediatrician again. It was confirmed, he was indeed much better. Unfortunately, I wasn't so lucky. I started getting the muscle pains Friday night and I was hoping that was was just tired from the sleep deprevation of the past month and a half. Saturday morning was the Living Memorial/Arbor day ceremonies at one of Nutley's parks. I was surprised to so many people attend, I think there were trees being planted in the memories of 25 loved ones including Samantha. There was 2 trees dedicated to Samantha's memory, a Cherry blossom and a Magnolia. I am especially looking forward to walking by the Cherry blossom in late March/early April when it blooms. Although it will be a sad reminder of the anniversary of her death, nothing is more beautiful and festive than the bloom of a Cherry blossom tree.
I got home on Saturday evening and I was ill. My body was achy, my head was pounding and the theraflu packet that I had taken was doing it job. I didn't even notice that Chris and Phil had come to stay over for Mother's day tomorrow. I fell asleep by 8pm but I tossed and turned all night. I had weird dreams that I couldn't quite remember, those are the worst kind of dreams. I've been having those a lot since Samantha's passing. I felt better on Sunday morning, Mother's day. I made Lilly fruit salad, I really do not know how to cook, Jonathan made a card. We brought our gifts to Lilly as she was getting out of bed. She didn't like the fruit salad but loved Jonathan's card. Mother's day was starting off much better than I expected. Lilly made everyone a hearty breakfast of waffles and bacon. Lilly, Chris and I had to go shopping for the day's get together with the rest of her family.
The first cry of the day belonged to Chris. We took him to the park where the Cherry blossom was planted and one thing led to another. We were all in tears and we were off to the races. I thought that this was supposed to get easier as time passed but I that the crying can not be controlled, there is no spigut to turn the water on or off. We hurried home after buying what we needed at the market, I was also starting to feel very achy again. I went straight for bed to try and get as much rest as possible before the rest of the family arrived in the afternoon. Lilly was begining to feel the effects also. I took a nap for a good 2 hours, it would have been more were it not for the sound of Jonathan screaming Megan's name. I was excited to see how the book came out. Millie had the job of binding the book and although she was disappointed by the outcome, I wasn't. She used orange cloth to cover the outside of the book and used sticker lettering to spell out the title.
We presented the book to Lilly as her Mother's day gift. She was overwhelmed to say the least. She had already read my draft and the illustrations on computer but that is nothing compared to holding the book and reading the pages. I was very impressed at the work that Rob and Millie did with the illustrations, they are truly gifted graphics artists. I know Lilly will treasure this book for a very long time. Unfortunately, this was the highlight of Mother's day. I got the chills in a bad way and had to spend the rest of the day and night in bed alternating between sweating out the flu and curling up in a ball to retain warmth. It's kind of weird but I seem to get sick almost everytime there is a family get together.
I forgot to mention one thing, the one dream or thought that I did remember on Sunday morning was getting a hug from my daughter. It was probably more of a wish on my part than anything else but I was greatful to have remembered it as I was waking.
Thursday, May 17, 2007
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