weird happenings

Now I know I'm going crazy! I was home alone last night, my wife Lilly and my son Jonathan slept over a friends house. A really strong storm passed through NJ overnight and it was pretty awe inspiring. I tossed and turned because of the deafening rain and the very powerful thunder. At approximately 2 am, I was awakened by a vibration coming from the bed, the vibration was causing me to bounce. Needless to say I was scared and I wanted my mommy. I thought maybe the entire house was shaking so I got out of bed and placed both feet on the floor, hoping the house was causing the vibrations. Absolutely not! I placed my hand on the bed to make sure I wasn't dreaming and I could still feel the vibration. I had to run to the bathroom for fear of peeing my underwear. A part of me was wishing that it was my Samantha playing games with me from heaven to let me know that she was still with us. The rest of me got back into bed and curled up in a ball to attempt going back to sleep.

Am I crazy? I hope not but I've been lost in a fog this past week. I guess I went back to work too soon. I've gotten by at work but I'm not sharp and I've been leaving things unfinished. I am not as depressed as I was during the middle of the week, that was bad. I also haven't seen my wife and son since yesterday. I get to pick them up from the friends house tonight and I can't wait to give them a big hug. I am also relieved that I will not have to face that bed alone again.